TIDES OF LUST (Episode 15)

“My second point is that, soon you will be done with school here, and probably go abroad to further your studies and maybe unite with your boyfriend”

“Evelyn I really like you, I swear.......but I have to start a serious relationship with someone and that person is definitely not you”........I concluded.

“Pascal, I’m deeply sorry for those things I said to you then. But sincerely, I won't leave you for anybody. I have come to develop something deep and real for you. I would have told you a long time ago, but when I remember those things I said to you when you were in first year, my heart skips”.........she explained soberly.

“You have to snap out of this imaginations of yours Evelyn.......What is wrong with you? You have a boyfriend for crying out loud. Wait, are you guys having issues? If that is the case, you can easily talk it over and resolve it”.........i advised.

“I don’t have any boyfriend Pascal, I swear I don’t”.........she replied, and started crying all over again.

I looked at her, my eyes widened in surprise, I wasn't expecting that response from her. 

“But what does she even mean by She don't have a boyfriend? What happened to the guy that base in London?”.........I wondered.

“What are you saying? You told me you had a boyfriend schooling in London and that’s why we couldn’t have anything serious. Or was that a lie you made me believe?”........I asked curiously.

“I didn’t lie to you Pascal.....The truth is that, I have never seen the guy face to face. The whole thing was an arrangement made by our parents. I only talk with him via phone and video calls”.......she replied.

“You gotta be kidding me. Do parents still do that in this age and era?.......Ok then, but even at that, why did you keep up with it till this moment?”.........I questioned.

“I didn’t want to offend my parents. I have been able to put up with it till now because I want to please my parents. The relationship meant a lot to both families. But I don’t care anymore now"........she replied.

“Your parents would be unhappy with you, since you have decided not to be entangled with who they want......or don't you think?”.........I muttered.

“I really don't care about  my parent's reactions........I can’t sacrifice my happiness for something I don’t even know the intent. I'm ready to bear every consequence and be where my heart belongs; and it’s here and with you”........she said confidently.

“Ok, calm down and stop crying. If I tell you that I understand this dicey situation or can handle it, I will be lying. but we are going to find a way through this ok?”.........I assured her, and she nodded.

“Pascal I'm sorry, I……”.......she tried saying something, but I cut her short.  

“Shhhhhhh!! Don’t say anything.......let's get some rest”.......I said gently.

We both laid back down on the bed staring into space, with many thoughts running through my mind.

“How do I handle this?

I can’t cut off my girlfriends because of Evelyn.......what about Charlotte? what do I do about her? I really love that girl”

“What about Sandra? That is a no, no. I can’t cut her off as well. It is not possible at all.......Hmmmmm!! I don’t like this kind of complications”.......I wondered.

Evelyn stayed for that day, but we both didn't talk to each other as we ought to, we couldn't even have séx.

On Sunday evening when she was prepared to go, I sat her down to talk. I started the conversation first, in response of her feelings for me.

“Babe I'm happy that you came out clean to tell me about your feelings. Truth is that I have been worried about your behavior recently. In as much as this is very difficult for me, I'm happy you said it out” 

“But just like I told you yesterday, I have someone that I want to start up something serious with and I think I love her. But on the same note, I wouldn’t want to hurt your feelings” 

“Evelyn, this is going to be difficult for me, because I never thought a day or something like this will come between us. You have been more than a friend to me and……”.......Evelyn quickly interrupted my speech.

“Pascal please don’t tell me it can’t work between us, please.......I’m going to be the best I can for you. I’m going to pay you back for the heartbreak I caused you in first year……..”she pleaded, with tears rolling down her eyes.

“Wait, and let me finish speaking.......In as much as this is going to be difficult for us, I’m going to give us a trial. And if at any point I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel for us, please don’t fight it, just let me go then”.........I concluded, letting out a deep sigh.

“Thank you, Pascal. I know we are going to make it. I know it will work  between us. I'm not going to do anything to hurt you, trust me”........she assured me, with a broad smile on her face.

I flashed a weak smile at her, hoping that I made the right decision, by starting a romantic relationship with her.

After we talked for a while, I saw her off and came back to my room, to continue with my thoughts. 

I needed someone to talk to. I don’t know how I was going to handle the situation. My instincts were telling me that trouble looms if I don’t handle the situation well. The truth is, my instincts are never wrong.

“Oh God please help me, now I'm very confused”........I muttered, holding my head with my both palm.

To Be Continued..........